The following is based on a conversation I had recently. It was when I finally realized that however I was feeling about this certain situation was fine, after feeling like I had to feel a certain way. I don’t know how to emphasize my feelings or the importance of this conversation to me so I put it down below.
when i asked her about what she said she told me she never said it and never would
hmm interesting
i think she just sees it as i’m over it because she will casually reach out like the other day she sent me something on instagram
that feels kinda icky? like it seemed like a big deal to u
it was
but it doesn’t bug u at all anymore?
well idk recently i’ve been missing the friendship but it’s never going to be like that again and i know that
that’s valid
i know but i dont always feel that way either i texted abigail that i talked to her hoping that she would remind me of what happened i cant just forget about it
i just think y’all should talk about it a little further at some point but also if u believe her when she said that then i guess? it’s fine? idk i’m sorry i don’t wanna sound controlling
no you’re right
i’m just iffy cuz i only saw ur side of things
you know about as much as i do and there are a lot of things i’d like to pick her brain on but i know it’s not something she’s going to talk about easily and i know that i’m not gonna get an apology but i cant just stop wanting one
yeah totally understand that i think a lot of ppl would be that way too it’s tough tho i get that i’ve had similar situations here
another reason i think this could be happening is that she’s been starting to hang out with the girls again and that seems like it was a first step for her to think its ok to just come back i’m just puzzled
oooh that makes sense valid it’s a puzzling situation
ive said it before but i also want things to be easier for our other friends and i shouldn’t have to think about that when it comes to how i feel i really think that a lot of what was supposedly said on BOTH sides was from someone like i still have no idea what i supposedly said which really makes me think i never said ANYTHING or if anything was said it was the fallout of response of what i had been hearing like i know i walked around saying “if shes mad then she shouldn’t have treated me that way” and i still stand by that idk if that made any sense but it also sounds like i’m making excuses
i don’t think ur making excuses at all it just sucks that there’s so much confusion abt what was actually said and who said what and this is something thats really going to affect you like this is wild
like i wanna know what was being said about me actually jk i think i just put the pieces together